I have realized that I am no longer motivated. These past 5 months have been a giant blur of booze, wasteful relationships, late night meals and not nearly enough homework. I feel like I am losing control and ambition.
I am finally thankful to be spending a valentine's day alone. Yet, I do not wish to be catching up with countless 'gender and society' readings that I have not touched this semester the night before my birthday. Speaking gender, to me, is one of the most pointless topics. The world is patriarchal and will always be, I don't care.
I have spent entirely too much effort keeping our rugby club afloat, consequently sinking my grades. Additionally, I sleep with drunken teammates in my bed more than I sleep alone. I should be charging these assholes rent.
Happy birthday lynney!
so, my parents are coming up today, and we're going tailgating at the football game. Should be interesting...brother...
umm, did some partying last night, had a hard time getting drunk for some reason. I think Rocky's has taken the alcohol out of their shitty beer and added more shitty to it.
got my car towed last friday. $271. pretty awesome.
oh kind of a big deal in my life right now; yesterday I sat on a panel of about 10 in front of a class of 200+ talking about our sexuality. I had volunteered to do this about a week ago, but when the time came, I was super nervous and had a couple drinks with Teagrin beforehand. Then, I started to get nervous that I was going to sound drunk, so after every question I answered, I turned to my buddy Nic who was also on the panel asking him if I did sound drunk. He said no, so I think I am good. Anyhow, it was a pretty awesome experience and I am really glad I did it. Something that needed to be done. It was a good oppurtunity for people to ask questions with no restraints and help them realize that its ok to ask questions about anything and not have it be weird. cause its not.
so yeah, thats been whats up lately, drinking, car-stealing, and outting myself to the masses.
have a good weekend everyone.
today is the last day of summer, for those of you who weren't aware. The weird thing is, is that I am completely sober right now, but I am being completely reflective and emotional, something I usually do when posting on livejournal only when I'm drunk.
This past summer has been a monumental one, more so than last summer even though it seems like last summer was more eventful. For one, I had time away from tampa to think about friendships made, friendships lost, and friendships rekindled. I made new friends in Melbourne as well, girls at work that I was never really friends with in highschool. Spent a lot of time with my pal John. Also, I realized that coming back home, most of the people I was friends with in highschool was because that's all there was. Going into college, you meet people who are more you taste and have selection, unlike the EG was.
I hit up some good parties and fell in love with all the wrong people.
Also, I think it is a good thing for people to be away from home for a while, then come back for a while, and then go back away. It really puts things into perspective when you get a chance to step away from different situations in different places and definitely makes you think about what you want to do with your life and change your original plan.
On top of all this, one of my most successful accomplishments is my bond with my dad. I used to be completely partial to my Mom, but now, I feel like I can approach my Dad with things that I can't do to my Mom. pretty cool.
As fall will come and go, I hope to keep making progress in learning and whatnot. I will be going to G-ville soon to see my Tina, I miss you.
now its time for a drink, so that this post doesn't look too ridiculous when I reread it.
this is harder the second time around.
got a ticket friday night for rolling through a stop sign. $121.50. I was high.
saw ub40, maxi priest etc. live yesterday at cocoa beach pier. i wasn't high surprisingly.
finished packing today and spent time with the wagners.
i have a full line-up of partying already in store for tampa. in the meantime I must find a job since I am now in the hole after that unexpected 5-0 encounter. in the words of "2 live crew", fucking pigs.
still ridiculous and pathetic.
I am ridiculous and pathetic!
tonight, I am at the Salmon's house-sitting. Im about to pass out sitting up though. I raided their ice cream, liquor, and sleeping aide cabinets and am feeling pretty loose...and fat. Im binging ondigital cable and hot tub... I love rich people. anyways i'vebeen all over the state lately. Orlando for rugby this weekend, miami last weekend for rugby.Lots oflosing, fun, and passing out. All in all a generally good time. went to orlando last tuesday also for a party. It was an underwear party andwe had to pay if we didnt strip. John got right down to the nitty gritty,but cory and I just opted for the entry fee. it was gay and ended up getting broken up by the po... we rode around in a van for an hour and a half, cory and i held hands the whole way. Im in love again, but someone has a girlfriend... umm...almost got arrested for stealing a kiddy manequin at the social on saturday. Luckily I was able to drive away. I watched pimp my ride with my dad last night. Apparently he watches it all of the time. My mom told me I could have a couple beers at the salmon's tonight without me even asking...it was weird and I said no thanks...I obviously gave in though but went for the more expensive crown royal. I actually saw this salmon guy pour down half a bottle of crown royal once down the sink. If you guys dont know, its canadian whiskey that goes for about $50 a pop...christ. we all know that college students do anything they can to get alcohol. shit, Iknow some people who try to ferment their own alcohol with old apple juice...
anyways, Im going to go watch degrassi. bye
props to jamie for being an ultimate supremo friend. just like one of those taco bell entrees.
I watched people do lines of coke the other night. scary I know.
i just found out that karalyn aranow is dating matt flowers. that's weird and...nope, pretty much just weird. i don't think that I'm lj friends with karalyn, but sorry to you if I am.
where to begin. actually, it really doesn't matter. life here in the suburbs is nothing different from what it used to be: me watching law and order re-runs while dad is sleeping on the couch with the afghan my g-ma crocheted and my mom down in her room gossiping with my aunt, frequently pausing to get up and sneak a peek at someone walking on the sidewalk past our house who she suspects is going to damage something on out property. I just ate a late night round of grapes, butterball turkey slice, and cheese-itZ. I believe I'm listening to shania twain or perhaps faith hill (not by choice) on lite-rock right now. Op, delilah's preaching, time to change that up.
alright, no more banter. Anyhow, as many of you know, I have recently passed my 'wendy's' torch on to the future biggie-sizers of sherwood park. I now take pride in discounting geriatric pants and teeny thongs at beall's in the same plaza as my alma mater of jobs: wendy's. I come home for an hour break and eat. And at night I'll either stay home and catch the very best of trebek on jeopardy or go over to the cogan house and hang with the man-kind. If anyone ever wants to shoot the bull, here is my number: 615-4988. I am not concerned with putting my number on the internet since I have never had a predator or intend on having one. My knee-length shorts and guinness sandals usually ward off any kind of sex-craving man.
work is cool.
going to a strip club with john blondin thursday night since we tried bare assets last night and apparently couldn't get in because of the 21+ policy. you know what? because is a weird word.
well I should probably travel to stage 4 sleep here pretty soon. Love to all, but alittle more to those who are in need of it.
we lost our championship dodgeball game tonight. I won't be waking up tomorrow...
In other news, I now have a guinea pig. Everyone should come to my dormroom to see it.